Miracles ~ Lesson 6

"I am upset because I see something that is not there".  Woah!  Is this ever not true for me today.  I am so good at seeing things that are not there.  From being insecure and thinking that people are judging me or talking about me, not measuring up at work and thinking that my superiors are about to ask me to step down, to my son using when he's not.  This is a great Lesson for me to practice..... wow I feel like I say that alot in my Blog but it is so true.  At times I am paralazied by my thouths and my perceptions of what I think is there that really is not.  I will continue to say this one in hopes that it will replace those negative thoughts with what is reality.  I AM UPSET BECAUSE I SEE SOMETHING THAT IS NOT THERE!!!  :-)

Long Weekend....

So I had a very long weekend and missed reading my lessons.  However, I am back on track this morning. 

So Todays lesson says "I am upset because I see something that is not there".  What I need to do today is to name the form of upset; anger, hurt, frustration, depression, etc. AND the PERCEIVED source.

I will let you know how it goes today. :)  I really love these lessons.  They seem to come at the perfect time, just like my step work.  I am always on the step I need to be on at the perfect time.  Now if I could just get done with this dang 4th step.  haahaa

A Course In Miracles ~ The Book and where to find it!

It was brought to my attention by another member that she was unable to relate because she did not know what book I was reading.  Thank you "Tam Tam" for making that comment. 

The title of the book is A Course in Miracles (ACIM).  You can select this link for an introduction to the Lessons http://acim.org/workbook_lesson_intro.html and/or you can go to http://acim.org/Lessons/index.html for the lessons. (The entire book actually) I also went to Barnes & Noble and bought the book.

A friend of mine got me started on this and we would text or talk on a daily basis about how we were doing or how we felt.  I did the lessons daily for 47 days and skipped about 10 days and decided to start over with more diligence and effort.  I really believe in the teachings and the purpose behind them.

This is what brought me to this blog.  I wanted a place to journal I guess and to share my experience along the way and to allow others to do the same if they wanted to join me.

Miracles ~ Lesson 5

So I finally decided to move on from lesson 4 and started lesson 5 yesterday.  To comment on this lesson I realized that my "perception" of what my thoughts "mean" are controlling how I act and react to things outside of me.  When I have a thought about say..... my husband not picking up his dirty clothes at the bottom of the stairs,  I get angry and resentful and behave in such a way that creates more misery for myself.  When I can choose to say "this thought about my husband not picking up his dirty clothes at the bottom of the stairs does not mean anything.".  Its not as easy as "when I can choose"....lol  That's why I had to do that lesson for a few days. haa-haa  And believe me, I should be doing it for about another 365 days. 

I am also using this lesson with things that I am working thru in therapy.  Yes, I need to work thru the feelings.  However, saying this allows me to realize that I don't have to suffer the pain that I have felt for the last 20 years any longer.  I can CHOOSE to perceive it another way!  This course is so amazing! :)

So..... on to Lesson 5.  This is another lesson I think I need to stay on for maybe a couple of days.  "I am never upset for the reason I think. I can not keep this form of upset and let the others go."  Phew......  again.....Laundry at the bottom of the stair. LOLOL

More to come later!   Please.....if you have comments or your own experience to share with me, please share it.  I would love to hear your points of view as well. 

These thoughts do not mean anything......

So this is todays lesson from A Course In Miracles.  I think that I am going to stay on this lesson for a few days or until I feel that I have gotten it down.  I know that I am supposed to do a lesson per day but this is something that I think that is very important to remember.  I can get stuck on some thought in my head that I have created and obsess on it for a very long time.  If I could just remember.... "These thoughts do not mean anything" maybe I could move forward.  So I am going to stay on this lesson for a few days!

Miracles...Lesson 3.

i do not understand anything i see today. that is the lesson for today. i have to keep it as simple as that. ok....i am having a hard time with this one. going to keep practicing. anyone else have any comments?

Nikki SPEAKS about anything and everything!: Miracles.... Lesson 2

Nikki SPEAKS about anything and everything!: Miracles.... Lesson 2: "So todays lesson ... 'I have given that all the meaning it has for me.' This is going to be one for me to remember on a daily basis. I wrot..."

Miracles.... Lesson 2

So todays lesson ... "I have given that all the meaning it has for me." This is going to be one for me to remember on a daily basis.  I wrote it down on a 3x5 card and put it in my purse for future reference.  There are so many times that I think about things or give people, places and things way too much energy in my life that I choose to think about negatively.  "I have GIVE IT ALL THE MEANING it has for ME".  I can perceive it however I wish. 

I give the flowers beautiful meaning, I give the dirt beautiful meaning, I give that guy who just cut me off beautiful meaning, I give that person who continues to use drugs beautiful meaning.  I also have given all of the negative meaning it has for me as well.  I have given that insecure meaning it has for me, I have given that angry resentful feeling the meaning it has for me.

I have given the feeling of love the meaning it has for me!

"A Miracle", my first post!!!

I am a almost 40 year old female with 12 1/2 years in recovery.  I have seen alot, done alot and overcome alot.  However, I have a long way to go.  I was talking to a friend about feeling "stuck" and how to get past that feeling and he suggested "A Course In Miracles".  I will tell you that the idea to me at first when I got the book was confusing.  When I started reading the front of the book, it was ALOT! I didnt understand most of it, I got frustrated, had to re-read over and over so I put it down.  THEN... I decided to go straight to the lessons. Oh My Gosh......they are amazing.

The purpose of the Lessons are divided into 2 sections, the first undoing the way we see now and the second part possession of true perception.  It helps to train our mind to a different perception of everyone and everything in the world.

Although I did the lessons everyday religiously for about 47 days, I missed 3 or 4 days and quit.  So...... here I am.... to the world committing to start over and blog about my progress and share with you how my life changes from ACIM!!!